Time to be responsible

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My student loans are a lot. I just realised that I have to pay 1/3 - 1/4 of my monthly income for 20 years to pay for it.

Which means I should be more responsible.
I keep losing focus.

Is it because I have no interest? Nope.
I am simply too lazy, too laid back, too trap in the past, too arrogant to accept that I need more improvements.

It's time. I have another two weeks.
They say it's never too late.
But maybe it is. Kind of late.

I need some trigger.
Some motivation.

And this might just be it.

Good Luck.
You can do this.

Trying to please the people you hate doesn't make you a better person.
Trying to prove that I am good that way, is just pathetic.
Perhaps I just need some time to adjust.

Life is so complicated that, I think I have given up on figuring out what exactly is right, or wrong.
Just make it simple. And strive hard.

Live, to the fullest.

Love, to the fullest.

Find Joy in efficiency.

Joy, in loving and living.

Joy in being loved.

Have to slowly adapt a lifestyle that is more... organised..
instead of forcefully introducing one that changes the entire routine, which in the end, never fail to fail.

You can be anything. Just do this. You know you can.

Love yourself. :) For no one else would, if you don't.

^_^

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